Re: Next steps

Dec 811:37+7:36

jonathan breaux

Okay so since you didn't action the buyout quote we'll have to reconnect to try again.

Would it be easiest for you if we finish negotiating and filing out the ledger, both agree and sign to balances/assets/liabilities, and then you just get a personal loan to pay me in one lump sum? I will also walk you through the process of what you need to do in Fidelity to acquire my stock booklet.

My interest rate on the truck is lower than my other interest rates, so I can just ask 53 to transfer the title to you and keep paying the loan off myself so you don't have to buy it out. That would be less for you to do overall and would allow us to be a bit more asymmetrical while also saving me an enormous amount of money.

Insurance renews on the 14th. I don't think we'll be able to get this over the finish line before that but if you can contribute maximum effort this week then we may be able to make 2026 your first full year in a whole decade completely (99.9%) Jonathan Breaux free!

🎉

When can we work on this? The sooner the better, and you'll need access to a computer.

Cheers~

👻

Dec 819:13+1:05

Marysue Curtis

What is your availability?

Dec 820:18+11:59

jonathan breaux

Pretty much wide open.

Dec 908:18+0:21

jonathan breaux

Except Friday evening until after 11ish. And unless you're going to come do work while stargazing with me for the Geminids meteor shower then I'm busy Saturday night as well.

Dec 908:40+1d 00:29

jonathan breaux

That could actually be really nice. We could get everything tied up, signed, and then just have a nice pleasant final evening before saying goodbye and setting sail to our different corners of the world. All your people would be more than welcome to join, I would actually really like that. I could make hot toddies or something. I've become really good at pleasantly defusing drama if that's a concern - and it would give you a new chance to keep one of your promises we made as part of our original breakup: that if we ever got to that crossroads where we had to completely part ways, that it would be a mutual decision on amiable terms.

And I'm not a monster. It would be nice to get the chance to not feel like one .

But I expect that to be a hard no for you, for whatever reasons you have.

Your choice though. You decide what to believe, what matters, what has meaning. How strong you are, what you care about, what you fear. I won't try to persuade you to believe that I don't have to lose in order for you to win.

We can just do the formalities in a quick call after work today and try to wrap it up there.

Dec 1009:09+0:05

Marysue Curtis

I’m sorry, I’m not ready.

I honestly have a really busy week but I might be able to make later on Thursday if your available then?

Dec 1009:15+23:02

jonathan breaux

You never will be. Who's afraid of little old me?

Thursday, then.

💀M

Dec 1108:17+2:30

jonathan breaux

Glorious morning y̶o̶u̶ ̶o̶l̶d̶ ̶h̶a̶g̶ my old comrade-in-arms 🌄

Would you kindly pick a time that suits you for tonight, then edit and accept the calendar invitation to reflect? I would appreciate this being completed by 1pm so that I can plan accordingly, though I will understand if it takes longer.

We can meet as late as you need but if you cancel I'm billing you $75 plus tax and an additional $50 for every hour passed noon as of the time of your cancellation. Partial hours will not be prorated.

[This rate may be negotiable.]

Thank you for your cooperation 🎶

🐼

Dec 1110:48+0:11

Marysue Curtis

Good morning! So this is the conversation that you said required a laptop? I just need to know how much time I will need to allocate. Cause if it’s a phone call that’s more flexible for me. Truthfully, this car stuff is more overwhelming that my dumb small brain can handle so I’m not sure of the best way to move forward.

Dec 1110:59+3:19

jonathan breaux

Your brain isn't small and dumb*, it just doesn't want to do tasky boring stressful things. Scrape out some plaque and find the brain of the woman who was crushing a marketing degree while working a corporate job and still going out and smashing bottles and breaking hearts with neurons to spare.

And yes I believe you will need a laptop. This is stress you can handle. It's just whelming. It's stressful to me too. And I'm going to help you handle it one step at a time, at as steady of a pace as you are willing to push.

* (ehhh)

Dec 1114:19+0:11

Marysue Curtis

What does your availability look like from 4pm onwards? I think it would be best for me to meet earlier rather than later actually.

Dec 1114:31+0:18

jonathan breaux

That's a curveball. I might be able to make that work, either leaving the office early or staying and taking the call here.

Can you just estimate the ranges of times you can be available today/tonight? I don't care how ridiculous they are. But it sounds like you're trying to work around an event and honestly I don't think you'll be able to focus and make decisions if something fun is on your mind. And if you're not going to be home tonight or if you'll be going home with company then obviously I'm not going to be interested in being the Dilbert demanding your attention to do paperwork.

Let's assume that we'll need an hour to hammer out the majority of what needs to be covered. 30 minutes at least.

Dec 1114:49+0:14

Marysue Curtis

No you don’t have to do that. Are you out of the office by 5? I’ll be leaving here at 4ish.

Rayna and Heidi have picked up country dancing with their bible study group and they’re all going dancing at 9pm. I haven’t danced in a while and was considering joining them but it’s fine if I end up not being able to make it. That is all. I also just wanted to take the call earlier rather than later because I’m stressing about it and I know it’s better to just do it and realize it’s fine and nothing to stress about than continuing to stress until later.

I would say I’m free for a start time of anywhere between 5pm-7pm assuming it will take an hour, so I can be done by 8pm and have some time to freshen up and drive over. But again, it’s no big deal if we need to go for a later time. There will be more opportunities for dancing and I have stuff to do at home anyways.

Dec 1115:04+0:14

jonathan breaux

I never have wanted and never will want my name to fill the reason section of the mental paperwork when you're filing away memories of missed opportunities. If you plan on coming home tonight after you go out, that would give me the most time to get all my items completed. If you would prefer to get it over with before you go out then I'll do my best to have everything ready for a quick meeting but it'll be less preferable. I don't anticipate we'll need a full hour.

I just got more meetings on my schedule so I probably won't leave until at least four and wouldn't be available until at earliest six

To be honest it would be strongly preferable to have the meeting afterwards if you're capable of doing that, and it'll be the fastest option because I won't have to look for things as we go.

I just don't want to be an ugly shadow lurking in the corner of your mind while you're trying to have fun with your friends.

Dec 1115:18+0:25

Marysue Curtis

I just think it will be so late by then cause I’m assuming we will probably be there for two hours so I’ll be getting home by like 11am and I have a longggg day at work tomorrow. I really don’t have to go. It’s fine. It’s not going to be a missed memory. I was already considering skipping it to stay home and clean.

If you really really wouldn’t prefer that then we would have to wait until Monday. My week is pretty open with the exception of Thursday and the weekend cause I’ll be heading to the valley.

Or we can also do tomorrow at any time before 7pmish I would say but I think you’re busy. I work from home though so I can meet in between crying spells and bouts of begging prospects to book with me now and not January.

Dec 1115:44+0:17

jonathan breaux

GETTING HOME BY 11 AM

Dec 1116:01+0:25

jonathan breaux

Okay look here's where I'm at right now. I haven't been worried or stressed about this conversation at all in any way up until you mentioned it potentially being stressful and I don't think that would have affected me if it wasn't for a weird combination of events here at work that tilted my emotions off-axis so it kind of compounded and I was starting to stress but everything at work (almost everything) has resolved and I'm back to seeing clearly and yeah there's really nothing I can foresee being worth stressing over from my point of view so I hope that's encouraging to you. BUT I also have a huge workday tomorrow and I think if you were willing to have our connect tonight when you get back I would have everything ready and lined up to make it a really pretty quick exchange that shouldn't keep either of us up. Plus I would feel better knowing that you went out and had a good time and a chance to release some of that stressful energy and hopefully come to the table in a mood I'd be better able to match. Plus plus I am going through a bit of something separately today and would love to have my own opportunity to go out alone and get a quick drink or two (far away from any country-related venues) before coming back and focusing on this stuff and getting it all lined up. So that's my number one preference. My second preference, if you absolutely don't want to agree to my first, would be me rushing out of the office right now right now to get back to the apartment and get Kuma walked and pull up all the documents and stuff to meet before you go out.

Would you be willing to go for my first choice? Or should I hump it out of here to make the (distant) second option

Dec 1116:27+0:08

Marysue Curtis

I just don’t feel like neither of those choices sound that great lol 11pm is like the earliest. Realistically it will be around midnight and I’ll be all sweaty so I’ll still need to shower and stuff and then wake up at 8am tomorrow and start dialing right away. You see how that just doesn’t seem feasible to meet

Before then also doesn’t see great cause I don’t want you to rush either so I don’t really know. I’m not in a huge rush to get it figured out either. I get payed on Mondays and can send another payment your way. I also have superrr tentative plans for Sunday but likely won’t be busy later so if you are free, how about then?

Dec 1116:35+1:34

jonathan breaux

Let's hit it before you shower! And we can set a hard time limit like 10 or 15 minutes, that way I can get the most important info I need to action some things tomorrow during the day while places are open and we can finish the conversation on Sunday hopefully a few steps further along.

It sounds perfect to meeeee

You're a baddie you can hang for 15 extra minutes!

And I appreciate your consideration for my efforts and finances, thank you for that.

But this is good yes good plan the best plan fast and dirty sweaty tired ultrafast debrief tonight yes yes? Agreed?

⁉️J

Dec 1118:10+3:03

jonathan breaux

Yes??? Agreed???

Dec 1121:13+0:03

Marysue Curtis

I don’t want to commit but I will try

Dec 1121:17+2:29

jonathan breaux

Thank you for the timely update

Dec 1123:46+0:19

jonathan breaux

[light-hearted, humorously comradely]

When you say you're gonna try how hard do you mean like on a scale from how hard you try to keep promises to how hard you try to make slick content transitions

Dec 1200:06+0:01

Marysue Curtis

I am currently stuck in stand still traffic. We have not moved in 5 minutes.

What in particular did you have in mind to talk about?

Dec 1200:07+0:00

jonathan breaux

Since we don't have much time I just need a few details from you that we shouldn't write down in emails then you'll be free

Dec 1200:08+0:01

Marysue Curtis

Why not?

Dec 1200:09+0:01

jonathan breaux

Because you and I are literally actively committing crimes

Dec 1200:11+0:06

jonathan breaux

In Minecraft

Dec 1200:18+0:11

jonathan breaux

You can just call me in traffic if you aren't driving I don't think it's anything you wouldn't want your girls to hear but if you're not with them then tell him I said happy birthday and congratulations

Dec 1200:29+0:02

Marysue Curtis

What?

Dec 1200:31+0:02

jonathan breaux

Just call me when you're home safe! Don't email and drive dummy. I've boiled down the necessary conversation for tonight to like three minutes I think

Dec 1200:34+0:02

Marysue Curtis

I can talk now if you want to crate an invite. But that last email almost put you in time out

Dec 1200:36+1:34

Marysue Curtis

Or I can just join the one you sent earlier

Dec 1202:11

jonathan breaux

I was in a really good mood today and really looking forward to a quick and easy exchange until you left me waiting for four and a half hours to hear back from you.

I really love talking to you, even if the topic isn't pleasant. It makes it difficult for me to remember or acknowledge the hell you put me through. If makes it difficult for me to remember how little I matter to you. It makes it easier for me to just be nonchalant and cavalier. It makes it easier for me to accept that there is no longer any love between us.

I'm sorry for grasping so hard at the threads of you that it's made you unravel. I really am so sorry for being so desperate to feel loved by you. You've done everything you can to make it clear that I have no space to occupy in your life. That nothing promised to me has ever mattered once it became inconvenient to keep. I really hate thinking about how much I loved the woman whose face you've stolen.

I'm doing everything I can to help you sever me from you for good. Please just have the mercy and grace to do your part so that we can cut these strings and let me run as fast and hard as my heart can take me as far away from you as you've already gone from me.

You've already ruined me in every other way, if you need to ruin me financially to feel free then just drop the truck off with the keys and let me bear that burden too if it means you'll be lighter and happier and free to live the life I used to hope to share with you.

Just pull the fucking plug. Please.